My deepest condolences,I have undergone the grieving process over the last two and a half years,and know what you're going through.

I offer my sincerest condolences. I'm just down the road if you need anything. You can call anytime.

Sincere condolences

I'm so sorry for your loss but glad to hear you have wonderful memories because they will help sustain you.

I'm glad to hear your family is involving you in future plans. I hope the pandemic does not curtail any of them because I found that the busier I was the easier it was to bear my loss.

I was fortunate to have smart caring friends in the guise of both singles and couples that continued to invite me to both events and projects. I also had financial issues that kept my mind engaged for the first two years.

The pain and sadness will never completely go away. A new relationship can hide it but even then periodically I saw an old Facebook memory picture that brought tears to my eyes and an ache to my heart. It sounds like you, like me ,had a loving and fruitful relationship. That makes for a wonderful memories and a very deep hole in your heart. I wish you comfort.

Sending you a virtual hug. Life will be a challenge for a while, but with compassionate friends and family you will get through this difficult time. Be sure to practice self care and take care of yourself.

I am so sorry for your loss. It's good that you're making plans as I always found them a good distraction even if it was sometimes difficult for me to participate fully ... it wasn't that I was jealous of other people's joy during weddings, births, anniversaries, etc., but that they reminded me too much of my loss, and good times with my husband. However much I wanted to be alone to deal with my emotions, too much time would lead to dark places for me. Sadly, the pandemic is making it difficult to get out and mingle, so it will be more of a challenge for you. Perhaps make a point of reaching out online more than you would normally? Organize small Zoom meetings with close friends? Or come here to talk. Online or off, there are some good, supportive people in this group.

I initially rejected support groups because I'm not a group person, and when I went to my first one, it seemed a bit like a single's mingle and it overwhelmed me. I did, however, find a small group at a local church (yeah, I know, but it wasn't religious) that only ran for six weeks. I think it was something like "grief during the holidays" or something, but I found it a good place to share my feelings and it helped me a lot. So I recommend keeping an open mind to that. Grief is a long, multi-layered process, so be gentle with yourself and your expectations.

I had good luck with a Methodist-sourced Grief Share group. It was heavy into group helping and sharing and relatively light on religious nonsense. I was pretty devastated when my wife passed.

If there is a grief support group it would probably help you to check it out. Grief is a strange thing. It will bring you to your knees when you least expect it.
I'm very sorry for your loss.