I can't stop crying today. One of the things I heard early on about death anniversaries is that the first is not the worst. I'm approaching the second anniversary of my husband's death (9/6), slept badly last night, read some posts on here about grief and I'm trying to hold it together here at work. My guy called and all I could do was cry. I'm supposed to go to his place tomorrow but he's coming here instead because he doesn't want me driving and crying. I'm just blindsided by this.
Sorry for your pain. It is never convenient and always a surprise when it hits.
I'm 12 years out and in a new relationship and I still miss my late wife anyway -- as I should. Kinda crazy how much room there is in our emotional landscape for all these balls in the air.
Be patient with yourself.
Hugs to you Mary. It's coming up on 3 1/2 years for me. It gets easier but never goes away. I'm moving on with life but will always have that huge empty spot. Peace.
One of the good things about this site is the people care, so if you need anyone to commiserate with you,just reach out
I'm so sorry you're going through such sadness, but I understand completely. It's been a little over a year since I lost my darling Richard, and it's still very hard for me. Sending a big hug your way.